New Soil New Beginning

You know those times in your life when you have sworn off men (or women)? Your just going to go out with your friends...have fun...no commitments? Just when your out there minding your own business you meet the one...your soul mate and all is well again.

It happened to me. I was minding my own business. I had sworn off house searching, house buying and house dreaming. Until I woke up one random morning and checked my email. There it was. A house that met every search criteria possible. THE HOUSE.
4 bedroom, 3 bath, 2 car garage, 3 car carport. Great schools for Caleigh, on a cul de sac and in a wonderful neighborhood. Large trees galore. Perfect.

I sat on it for a few days. I showed it to Eric and we talked about it. Then we drove by it. It was still perfect. Then we asked our realtor to show it to us. Perfect. That same day we signed a contract on it. The contract was contingent upon us selling our house. The only owner of the house for 32 years accepted it. So a few days later we put our house up for sale.
3 days went by and no one came to see it. I was getting a little worried. When the contract is contingent on the sale of another home the owner can still take offers. So I felt amazing pressure to sale sale sale! On the 4th day I got a call saying there was a showing scheduled. I ran around and got everything perfect. YEARS of watching HGTV really helped me out with this. I knew all that tv watching would pay off somewhere.

I went to the bank and drove Caleigh around while they were looking. I walked back in the door and our realtor called. They wanted it. The first person to walk in and they wanted it. 4 days. Amazing. The Thanksgiving holidays and negotiations have slowed things a bit, but we received the signed final contract yesterday.

The crazy thing is that they want to close on December 9th. That's 12 days from now. 12 days! I'm not sure we can pull it off. It will be a miracle if we do. One good thing about the rush date is us being in our new home before Christmas.

The house that we are buying needs a new roof and the air/heater system cleaned and serviced. The seller has to get that done before we can close on the house. So getting everything to coincide together is going to be really hard. We may have to live out of the big blue van for a few days!!

So that's our big news. A new house for Caleigh. A large therapy room that I am planning minute by minute in my head. Enough room and space for her to spin her wheels on that powerchair when we finally get it. And maybe, just maybe enough room to have another little Gray baby down the long road. It's going to be wonderful.

Please pray for a smooth simultaneous process. The next two weeks are sure to be full of stress and excitement.

Update

Caleigh is doing much better this Thanksgiving morning. 3 large wet diapers, a moist mouth and energy all followed the long nap yesterday.

This morning I decided not to chance it and skipped the Turkey Trot. I'm a little bummed, I've been looking forward to doing a race with Caleigh. There is always next year though.

This morning I started back up on feeds at half strength. So we will see how it goes. Her diarrhea has definitely slowed but not completely stopped.

Thank you to everyone. Prayers answered. So much to be thankful for this morning...in my own house.

Oh the Tummy

Caleigh still isn't doing well. Quite frankly we are on the verge of going back to the hospital if she doesn't turn a corner this afternoon.

We all haven't slept in days. Right now Caleigh is napping, and has been, thank the Lord, for the past 3 hours. She has woken up once an hour with a dirty diaper and that has been the pattern for the past 12 hours.

We went and saw our GI doctor yesterday. Caleigh has blood in her stool which isn't shocking. So we upped the dose of xifaxin antibiotic that I had already started giving her on Monday. It's either bacterial overgrowth or a stomach bug gone very bad.

We canceled the H1N1 shot that Caleigh was supposed to get yesterday because of her being sick. I was hesitant to do it and our GI confirmed us waiting.

Yesterday Caleigh was looking better, but today is worse. This morning we stopped feeds and started a drip of pedialyte hoping to stop the diarrhea. We are also giving Imodium regularly. Things have slowed down since last night and she seems to be sleeping comfortably right now.

We had lots of plans for Thanksgiving weekend. Lots of family and friends and we were even supposed to run in the Turkey Trot tomorrow morning. Things aren't looking positive and I'm just praying we get to stay home for Thanksgiving instead of being in the hospital.

There have been a lot of calls wondering about our "Big News." So just in case you were wondering "No, I'm NOT pregnant!" I'll save the surprise a little longer.

Please say a prayer for Caleigh's diarrhea to stop and for her to stay hydrated enough to stay home this weekend.

I'll update more later.

Catch Up

I have about 15 minutes to type this up before Caleigh wakes up with another dirty diaper. She's been stooling every hour or so since Saturday morning.

We had made it up to 14 hours of feeds and 10 hours off. I have been adding in foods as well.

It's wasn't working. We have switched back to the 24 hour slow drip feeds as of this morning. Caleigh's hydration seems to be ok right now, but I'm watching her. She turned a corner so fast last time that it makes me nervous.

We have an appointment with GI tomorrow, but I've already put a call in this morning. My guess is bacterial overgrowth, which Caleigh hasn't had for over a year. I have been giving extra probiotics and oreganol oil in the mean time. She just hasn't been the same since we had to stop feeds for 3 days a couple of weeks ago. I'm so hoping we can get back to where we were, but I know it will take time.

On Friday I got a call from our pediatrician's office letting me know that Caleigh was on the high risk list to get the H1N1 vaccine and they are having a clinic tomorrow evening. Eric and I talked about it the whole weekend and have decided to go ahead and do it. The main factor being the death of one of the kids our PT sees just last week. They had been congested for a couple of weeks and then all of a sudden in the ICU and dead from complications with the swine flu. If Caleigh was a completely normal child without any health problems I would say "no", but she's not and the swine flu is killing kids like Caleigh. Of course I'm nervous about the vaccine, but I'm more worried about the flu at this point. So that's our decision.

We have some other big news too, but with the major lack of sleep and sick little girl it will have to wait until a later time....

Chilly Update

The fall chill has set in. I miss the warm weather already. I personally don't like anything below 70 degrees, but hopefully the cold won't last long.

Caleigh has been doing well since we got home. We started therapies back up today. It was nice to take a long weekend off. We all needed the rest.

On Friday, Eric and I took Caleigh for a long walk. We were out for awhile and Caleigh did well. Saturday, Caleigh and I went to lunch with Grammie and had a good time. On Sunday, I had a baby shower all afternoon. It was great to get to visit with friends and ooh and ahhh over the mama to be. Sunday night, Eric and I got dressed up and headed to the March of Dimes Signature Chefs event. Mimi and Pop stayed with Caleigh. We had such a good time visiting, eating delicious food and watching all the love for premature babies. Being an adult out of the house was wonderful. It was truly a great time.

This weekend was just what I needed to perk back up.

Caleigh's feeding schedule is getting closer to what we were before, but there is still a long ways to go. Right now we give her a feed at 8am and it runs for 2 hours, a feed at 12pm and it runs for 2 hours, a feed at 4pm and it runs for 2 hours, then we hook her up after her bath for a 6 hour continuous feed. That's a lot of pump time still. We have started adding back in vegetables and fruits. Caleigh has tolerated the food so far.

Eating by mouth is a different story though. I'm pretty sure she has regressed. Caleigh now gags at the first smell of food and starts chewing with a curled lip before I even put the spoon in front of her mouth. I've only been able to feed her by mouth a hand full of times since she got sick. I have to hold her and play music really loud to achieve anything. Don't even think about the high chair. Speech therapy hadn't been going well anyways. Caleigh seems to freeze up and not act like herself as soon as we get there. So I haven't really seen any progress in quite a while. We go tomorrow so we'll see how it goes.

I'll leave you with this little video of Caleigh using my computer. I put it on her stander tray to keep her entertained. She likes to hit all the buttons so I am working on getting a USB switch adapter. So instead of her hitting the keyboard she will hit a button and it will make the activity happen on the computer. They are about a hundred bucks so Santa just might have to bring it this year. Until then I will just have to keep undoing all of her accidental clicks...

I LOVE this website. It has different click levels or you can just watch it do it's thing without having to activate anything. You can pick the speed of the patterns and the color of the pattern and background. Caleigh is using the 1 click version here. She is such a smart cookie! I'm so proud!

Funk be Gone

I'll never ever know. So why get down about it? Thanks for all the comments, emails and "Are you going to jump off a cliff" phone calls.

There..the funk is gone. How could it stick around very long anyways? Just look at that smile!

Feeling Responsible - Gastroschisis

When you have a child with special needs there is always that why did this happen question in the back of your mind. Always wondering what you could have done differently. I've heard as time goes on it gets easier to focus on the now instead of the past. I think this is true. It's become easier for me, but every now and then the what ifs come out of no where.

Yesterday, I stumbled across an article on Gastroschisis. I don't typically go out searching for information on Gastroschisis anymore. Caleigh isn't the typical Gastro case. I even stopped reading the Gastroschisis Yahoo Group about a year ago. I had downloaded a really nice medical news app for my phone and I was skimming through the Gastroenterology section when I found the article. It is a fairly new study about a cluster of Gastroschisis cases in Washoe County Nevada during the period April 2007 – April 2008. Caleigh was born during that time period. I've always been told that Gastroschisis comes in clusters. When Caleigh was born there were 3 other Gastro kids in the NICU, but at times there weren't any for months. Even our surgeon who had been doing Gastro repairs since 1976 stated the same.

When Caleigh was born, just like the previous 30 years, no one knew what causes Gastroschisis. Of course, I've read snippets of information. Possible restricted blood flow being one of them, but nothing concrete. When we went to the genetic doctor she said it was a fluke occurrence. The favorite among causes is the term Environmental. Which basically means: We Don't Know. Nice, huh?

So when I was reading the new article, my heart sunk. Here's the paragraph that really got me.

"In this study, “case mothers,” mothers who had babies with gastroschisis during the study period, were 13 times more likely to report having a sore throat during early pregnancy, and 17 times more likely to report having a chest cold in early pregnancy than “control-group mothers,” those who did not have babies with gastroschisis during the study period. In addition, case mothers were nine times more likely than control-group mothers to report having taken over-the-counter medications for these infections during pregnancy."

I was 5 weeks pregnant with Caleigh when I got the flu. Sore Throat..Check. Chest Cold...Check. Over The Counter Medications........Check.

When I got the flu I went to our primary doctor. He told me to take Tylenol and Sudafed (pseudoephedrine) as directed. I was ok with the Tylenol. When you get pregnant that's the only thing your allowed to take. The Sudafed I wasn't ok with. I went home and called my OBGYN to ask her if it was ok. She said it was fine. Two opinions, two doctors.

I ended up taking Tylenol during the two weeks of flu, but sparingly. I took Sudafed twice during that time because I was coughing so hard I couldn't sleep.

Worst Mistake Ever.

"This study added significant support to the findings of other studies that certain infections, such as colds and sore throats; use of cold medications, such as pseudoephedrine; and some recreational drugs, may be contributing factors in the development of gastroschisis."

So today I feel responsible. I feel misguided. It makes me sick to my stomach.

Two weeks can change SO much.

From Gastroshisis

to Prematurity

to Short Bowel Syndrome

to PVL

to Cerebral Palsy

to a life time of hospitalizations, procedures, tests, & therapies

I may never know what exactly caused Caleigh's birth defect, but the questions will always be in the back of my mind.

The what ifs are heavy today.

You can read the full article here

Home Again

We were discharged in record time this morning and made it home by noon. We really didn't have to twist the on-call GI doc's arm at all. Weird, huh? All of Caleigh's labs were still good this morning and they only had to stick her twice for the draw. We really enjoyed not having to wait on home health for all the supplies or even having to stop at the pharmacy to get new meds. It was quick and painless. Oh, how things have changed!

Caleigh is doing well. She is all smiles. As soon as we got home we laid her down for her regular nap time. She slept for 3 hours and Eric and I slept for 2. We all needed some peace and quiet.

We just hung out the rest of the afternoon. I've been cleaning things and disinfecting. Our ER doctor told me that the swine flu hasn't been in the ER for 2 weeks, but I'm still being cautious about all the other stuff we are trying to avoid.

Caleigh is now on 50ml an hour for 24 hours a day. This sucks because she is always hooked up to her tube. We plan on pretty slowly getting back to the 5 boluses of 200ml a day. One day at a time though. We worked so hard to get her eating what she was by mouth and on a more normal schedule, but we are pretty sure she will get there again soon.

Poor girl has bruises from head to toe. Hopefully they won't last long. The arm that they finally got an IV on looks terrible. We had it wrapped very tightly so that we wouldn't lose it. It worked wonderfully, but it's really badly bruised and of course the skin is broken down from the adhesive on the tape which is a normal occurrence for our sensitive skinned girl. I'm hoping it doesn't last long.

We are SO happy to be home. Here's to sleeping in our own bed!

Photo taken last week in Caleigh's new Ikea Ekorre swing

Day 3

Not much to report today. Caleigh has been smiling and is more accepting to other people holding her. She's been talking up a storm and seems to be more like her lovable self.

I made it home this morning for a shower. Man did I need it! I did a load of laundry and then came back up.

We've had a quiet day. The parade of people have slowed down. I met another mom with an adorable little boy on TPN and the whole get up that Caleigh used to sport around. Caleigh has come such a long way in just a year. Something I need to remind myself more often.

About 1pm we started feeds again at 10ml an hour. At 10pm tonight we will go up to 20ml an hour and so on every 8 hours we will go up. Caleigh's bloody stools have stopped. I hope they stay away.

My plan is to talk our way out of here tomorrow. I'm hoping that will work...we'll see.

Until Tomorrow...

Chicken Bad Fluid Good

We are still here. Hunkered down for a few days until Caleigh's intestines fully wake back up. By the looks of things we should be able to start some sort of small feeds tomorrow.

I didn't get any sleep last night at all. Caleigh was up the majority of the night too. Eric can sleep through anything. Caleigh took 3 small naps today and I took 2. Other than that I have been holding her all day long because she won't let anyone else touch her. She starts crying the moment the nurses walk through the door. Grandparents won't do and Caleigh's very own Daddy won't do either. Just Mom. She had started this stranger danger thing about 3 weeks ago, but I think yesterday's poking and trauma sent her over the edge. Plus when your sick you just want your mama.

I hate the hospital life. Today alone I counted 14 people that came in our room that work for the hospital. Patient advocate, child life, techs, nurses, doctors, etc. It's exhausting having a rotating door. How do they expect someone to heal and rest with all that commotion? Of course, we have had lots of family and friends stop by and we love that. People tend to leave us alone when we have visitors too.

Caleigh is feeling tons better today. Here output from her g-button is slowing down and turning a light yellow instead of the ominous dark green. The bloody stool had stopped last night but this morning it came back. Today she has had 4 stools and all have a dark brown type of blood. Not the bright red we were seeing on Saturday. So it's old blood coming out now which is a good thing. This morning's labs had to be drawn from Caleigh's finger tip. It's not the first time it's happened and probably won't be the last. She actually doesn't seem to mind it too much. The labs came back great. Everything is back to normal. Especially her Bicarb. When we were admitted it was 7, today it was 22...much better. She's hydrated, warm and pink all over. The stool samples for Rotovirus came back negative. We are still waiting on C-Diff and Cultures but I'm pretty sure that's not the case. She has yet to get a fever. It's the chicken.

Everyone keeps commenting on the chicken. What did you feed her? What did you do again? Oh, yeah I heard about the chicken....

I called our GI doc this morning and he came up to see us this afternoon. I still love this man. Such a heart on him. He's not on call this week, but still came by. He pretty much thinks this is just Caleigh being Caleigh. I totally agree.

So we hurry up and wait. At least we have a big room with a view and 2 beds to do that in.

Thanks to everyone for the sweet comments and emails. They help encourage us through the days. What support we have.

Admitted to the Hospital

Caleigh has been admitted to the hospital again.

Our saga began on Friday. Eric went on a 3 day hunting trip and Caleigh's G-button broke. I made a few calls and pinned down a new button at our home health company. This meant we were avoiding the emergency room. I picked it up and popped the new button in. I felt victorious.

Caleigh has been flying through the introduction of solids through her button. We have a large list of veggies that she can tolerate and a short list of fruits all of which make her stool loose. Not terrible, just loose. I'm blaming that on the sugar content. So Saturday was the day to start chicken and work on proteins. Apparently chicken is the easiest for babies to digest and it is suggested as a first protein. I bought organic dark meat chicken and boiled the crud out of it. On noon on Saturday I gave Caleigh a few tastes of the chicken puree and then put the rest (an ounce) in her Elecare. I laid Caleigh down for her nap and I proceeded to get ready. We were meeting Jocalyn and Kendall at the park for a little fresh air. When I woke Caleigh up from her nap at 2 she started retching and managed to get up some stomach acid. This is not normal at all and I was immediately concerned. As soon as the retching stopped, the stooling began. It continued in huge amounts for an hour. During that time I played catch up by hooking up a pedialyte bolus and pushing some Imodium. It didn't really help and by the time I decided to throw some stuff in a bag to head to the hospital she was completely pale, passing out in between diapers, cold and blue around the lips. Classic Caleigh dehydration.

I got to the ER about 5pm and they quickly red tagged Caleigh and took us straight back. The doctor ordered electrolyte labs and fluids. Caleigh needed it, but that's where our problems started. One person after another came in trying to get and IV so that we could start fluids. No one could get anything. It took them 4 sticks just to get enough drops for the labs. I was still giving fluids through her g-button and by 9pm she was looking better. Her eyes weren't sunk in and she had some color back. Her diarrhea had also stopped. Her labs weren't bad and didn't warrant an admission. The doctor talked to GI and it was decided that we could go home and continue to rehydrate there. I was happy to be going home, but I knew what Caleigh's body was doing. I knew we weren't done. Unfortunately, I went against my best judgment because I hadn't eaten in 12 hours, needed to pee, Eric was on his way and I had just spent the last hour and a half listening to an autistic boy screaming bloody murder. We headed home, but on the way out Caleigh had another large diaper.

We got home and Eric jumped in helping. We got Caleigh settled in bed and passed out ourselves. Fifteen minutes later we were up again changing her diaper and we proceeded to do so all night long every fifteen to thirty minutes. At about 1am Caleigh's stools started turning red in color. Bloody stools. At 6am I brought Caleigh in bed with us. At 9am we packed some more supplies, and clothes. Then headed back to the ER.

When we got to the ER and Caleigh was red tagged again and taken straight back. The triage nurse got attitude from me when she suggested I make a medicine list. On a side note, I have one it's just out of date and I'm usually great at that stuff, but we haven't had any appointments. Plus we brought the stupid medicine with us. Oh, and does it matter that the computer should have everything that I told the previous triage nurse less than 12 hours ago?? What more do you want lady?

I will spare everyone the gory details, but finally after about 7 tries and 3 hours an anesthesiologist nurse got an IV on Caleigh. It is getting harder and harder every time we need access. Her tiny veins are scarred, scarce and this is one time it's not cute to be a chubby kid. During one attempt of a scalp IV Caleigh bit her tongue so hard it started bleeding everywhere. It freaked Eric and I out and we made them stop trying to get that one. She's been grinding her teeth non-stop since that happened. I'm hoping she doesn't do any permanent damage, but I can already see exactly where her teeth are wearing down. It's terrible.

We made it to the floor about 2pm today. They have stopped all feeds and Pedialyte through her button. We put her button to gravity and it's now draining dark green. Not a good sign but typical of Caleigh's guts when they shut down. We did an x-ray and it showed her typical large dilated loops of bowel filled with gas. Her labs are worse. Her bloody stools have stopped now.

So we wait and see. Wait for Caleigh's intestines to wake back up from the trauma. Wait for her to be fully hydrated. One thing goes wrong and the whole system shuts down. I'm not sure how long we will be here. The last time this happened we were in for a week.

Apparently, chicken is not so easy to digest for Caleigh. I'm pretty sure my daughter is trying to tell me that she wants to be a vegetarian.

Please pray that this is just a chicken thing and nothing surgical. Pray for Caleigh to get restful sleep and for the abdominal pain to stop.

Gavin found his healing tonight. Please keep praying for the Owens Family as well.

Sweet Gavin

My heart is incredibly saddened today. Heartbroken. Can't stop crying. It has come time for Gavin to become an Angel in Heaven. Gavin is already an Angel on earth so the transition will be one of peace and serenity. Angels will wrap themselves around him and carry him Home. He will no longer have tubes, wires, hospital stays or surgeries. He will be at Peace.

Gavin and his family have touched our lives in so many ways. I feel today as if I am losing a relative, a friend, a child. A child that I love with all my heart. It seems a little crazy to use the word love because I have never met him, but I do. I have been following Gavin's journey since I was pregnant with Caleigh. His was one of the first blogs of sick children similar to Caleigh that really helped me along the way.

Today his family needs prayers. Prayers for a peaceful passing and prayers for peaceful healing. Prayers for Karen, Adam and Madison.

*I am coordinating a large condolence package to be sent to their family. There are already more than 10 families involved so far. If you are interested in contributing please email me at hollydgray@sbcglobal.net

Anti-Roll Bar

Here's one of Caleigh's new 'toys'.....

and by 'toy' I mean another piece of therapy equipment.

After attending the lecture series at The Institutes, it was highly recommended that we make an anti-roll bar for Caleigh. It's been months since I made the decision that I would make/get one. A few weeks ago, after the one trillionth time of putting Caleigh back onto her tummy, I vowed to do something and fast. After searching online for an easy fix I found the TaylorBar. Quickly ordered it and preceded to do the turn Caleigh over game until it arrived in the mail. Yes, I could have made one, but really I could have made one about 6 months ago too. It didn't happen. The TaylorBar is well made and a lot of thought was put into it. Caleigh enjoys it. She can now reach for toys while leaning on one elbow without rolling over. Even when she wants to roll over onto her back the bar stops her. Which is most of the time. She's moving a tiny bit more on her belly, but I suspect this will get better the longer she wears it. The only thing that is a problem is that the material used is fleece. Caleigh is such a hot head that we really have to keep the room cool when she is using it. Other than that, I think we have a winner.

The Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown Part 2

Some Pumpkin for my Pumpkin. I started thinking about Fall and all the yummy things that we could start trying with Caleigh now that she is taking some foods by mouth. I immediately went to my all time fave which is Pumpkin Pie. I mean come on.....who doesn't eat one to many slices during the holidays? Not me! mmmmm......

So I set out trying to figure a way to make Pumpkin minus the pie part. I went to the store and bought an organic pie Pumpkin. They are much smaller than the regular old carving pumpkins and they look pretty cute too. Did you know that a Pumpkin is actually a fruit? I learn something new everyday being a mom..geez.

Ok, here's how I made blended Pumpkin for my little Pumpkin and her feeding tube.....

First, I sliced open the Pumpkin. Not difficult, but make sure to use a sharp knife.


Scrape out all the yummy seeds and set them to the side. I'll show you how to make some delicious Pumpkin seeds in a future post. I know, I know... the suspense will drive you crazy, I'm sure.

Once your done scraping out the inside of the Pumpkin, flip it over, cut side down, in a small glass baking dish. Now add about 2 inches of water to the dish.

Now throw those orange delights in the oven at 400 degrees.

1 hour later...pow! Beautiful, golden, mushy and very hot Pumpkins. Make sure you flip them over so that they can cool a little bit before you touch them. Trust me, I know.



When your ready you can scoop out the Pumpkin and put it in your blender. I didn't add any water to the mix because I wanted the puree to be thick. Caleigh tends to have better luck with thicker blends and her tongue movement is more purposeful as well.

Pour the Pumpkin puree into ice trays and freeze. Each of these trays holds 16 ounces, an ounce a cube slot. Two pie Pumpkins made 4 trays.

There you have it. Pumpkin for my Pumpkin. Sadly my dreams of Pumpkin Pie for Caleigh was short lived. Take away the sugar, cinnamon, nutmeg and whip cream topping and all you really have is just another squash. No worries though. She seems to be enjoying the Pumpkin and today I added cinnamon to the mix.

Can you believe I just typed the word Pumpkin {including that one} 22 times?

Enjoy!

The Weekend Stuff

Nothing much happened this weekend. We didn't take Caleigh trick or treating and we didn't hand out candy. It was a regular night at the Gray household. We kept the porch light out until we were ready to go to bed around 10ish and then turned it on. By 11pm the door bell had rang at least 3 times. Probably kids to old to be trick or treating anyways. Hibernation sucks.

The time change has gone well, but it's only the first day and we didn't have appointments or anywhere to go. We also adjusted Caleigh's eating schedule to mimic real meal times and snacks in between. No more all night meals. We figured why not? The time is changing why not mix things up? So we will see how things go this week and we are going to be watching for any dumping in the process.

Last Monday we had a dentist appointment for Caleigh. I thought it was going to be her first cleaning so that's why I didn't cancel it. When we showed up he only did an exam and we started talking about how slow Caleigh's teeth are coming in. She has all four molars, the two top and two bottom teeth and just recently she got a 2 year molar. Her incisors and laterals are having a hard time coming in. The top ones look like they are about to pop through but they have looked that way for months now. The bottom ones are just gummy gums. So the plan is to wait another 3 months and then go back for a cleaning and see where they are at then. If they haven't come through the dentist will probably have to cut them in. Apparently there is a certain window of time for tooth eruption and Caleigh's time has almost past. Who knew? I just assumed teeth come in when they are ready too.

Today, November 1st, is the 2 year anniversary of Caleigh's original due date. It's a date that will be stuck in my head forever. When your pregnant and the doctor tells you that magical date you hang onto it and you look forward to it. I'll always remember November 1st and wonder what would have happened if I had made it to that day.